Falling in Love Over and Over Again

Me and my husband have been married for a year now. Yeah, we are one of those young couples on its honeymoon stage. But opposite of what some people think, first year of marriage is the most crucial year of married couples. Believe me, I know. Probably right, we thought those good times we had before marriage are assurance of a happy marriage, gee, that’s why we tie the knot. But, hell no, those were just - let’s put it this way - superficial “us” - if you know what I mean. What I am trying to say is, we didn’t show our true colors yet for fear of losing the one we love. And so, we go to church, take our vows and seal it with a kiss not knowing  really who we are wed to. We are totally married to a man who is roughly 70% stranger to us. Funny, right?

I am too married to a man stranger to me. But that was after I really know him. Then I fell in love with him again - big time!

Let me share to you the story of me and my puppyboo (husband of mine ) Married couples, like us, are faced with three major dilemmas - the in-laws, clashing character traits and financial problem. I am blessed with a very kind-hearted and generous in-laws. So, practically, we are spared of in-law vs. daughter - in - law issue. But we didn’t have the same luck with clashing character traits and financial problems. This is when our married life goes on the rocks.

There are times when we argue over at his work and my work. For your knowledge, our work is 80 - km distance apart. So, obviously, we couldn’t see each other as much as we want to. So there, I started to demand from him and I wanted him to come home with me but he couldn’t  for good reason - his work. But, I didn’t quite see the logic and so I kept on bragging him about it almost every week. I really didn’t know the word compromise then. It ended into a cold war. But my husband was just to kind to put up a fight with me for too long. He always made sure that we would not let a day pass before we solve our problems. His humility and kind heart melts my anger and arrogance away. Because of that humility and kind heart, I learned to compromise with him.

AND THEN, I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM AGAIN.

And then, financial problem comes to picture. We didn’t know  where to get money to pay our obligations to both our parents. Sometimes, our salary could’nt suffice the monthly obligations. Plus the allowances and more others. True, we could have deficit financial expenses at times. And when money runs out, anger comes in. There was one time when we only have P200 pesos on our pocket and we still had one more bill to pay. And when we finally had a cash on the bank, someone in the renewal agency automatically withdrew it to renew a petty site. So we’re back to nothing. The thought of it was so depressing.You know what made things better for us that time? It was my husband’s encouraging words as he quoted from the bible: God gives; God takes. Blessed be the Name of the Lord. I was touched by it and felt guilty of being so angry. After lifting up everything to the Lord, everything is a sure gain. We do not worry for what’s gonna happen tomorrow for we know God has better and bigger plans for us. Now, everything’s taken care of. And we are blessed to be part also in SFL FFL Community. There are still problems, true. But we know God is there for us.

AND THEN, I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM AGAIN.

Because of these experiences with my husband, I have known him even better. A stranger whom I am forever excited to unleash his deepest desires as we journey in our married life. I am confident now that life is never bed of roses all the time for roses have thorns as well. But things will turn out fine. I am not afraid for I know the man whom I am married to is there with me. I am looking forward falling in love with my husband over and over again.

God bless and have a blessed life!